Come Shame or Shine

Stand on me see if I flinch
Stab me see if I fall
Any self-worth left in me
I have ‘on my own terms’ set free
It’s of no use to me anymore
If I’m honest it was wasted
on me before
Dont think that you’ve won
This is nowhere near over
I’m far from being done
Sun rises
Day breaks
Seeking redemption
A desire for perfection
Intelligent fists throb to the beat
The day pulsates..
For the scars no longer visible
The scars that run too deep
I await the day of reckoning
deserved wrath I know I’ll reap
Sex is like Water you drink then you’re done
quenching a thirst then renders it numb
Locked in a cage no one jails me
I’ve chosen to stay and not run
ln perfect rhythm the beat goes on
beats me..
beats you..
beats all of us..
Voices in my  head recall the life
I could have led – should have led
Systematic delusion is cause – most insane
Events can occur that I’m unable to explain
Yet in the cold light of day are really quite simple –
straight forward to convey
Sadness weighs heavy
head begins to wilt
Aches that pang – Fuel emotion
Senses are awoken once again
An overpowering sense of guilt
Which way is it I turn
Away from the lessons that I’ll never learn
Darkness starts to fall
– Reality bites –
An habitual response a routine call
Built inevitably to break
addicts are weak
obsessively reminded
By the bitter pill I now take

Puppet Master

Spread the word
venomous toxic breath
promises portrayed
with zealous conviction
You are the’ Puppet Master’
Inflicting deadly poison
for those not yet aware
Your septic soul
where it began
an evil crusade
manipulating beliefs
half-truths.. mainly lies
tainted thoughts
corrupting minds
shameful slander
malicious mayhem
deeds of destruction
over shadows ignorance
You are the truth
the way and the life…

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Strong Spirit

Full filling our lives for almost four years

always making us laugh to help stop the tears


Your attitude to life engulfs us with pride

No sympathy wanted..  pity placed at one side


Your stunning blue eyes they sparkle like beads

revealing a determination with the will to succeed


I turn my head away from you racked with feelings of shame

Why can’t I be like you’

I want to scream and shout but there is no one to blame


You’re teaching me the way and helping me to find

that inner calm that you posses a welcomed piece of mind


You know how much I love you.. You know it’s cos I care

what you’ve been through already is put simply..  so unfair


Such a sensible boy with the strength of an Ox

If I had my way you’d be packed safe in a box..     :)  :)  x


A hero is someone who’s granted a gift enabling special powers

This describes you my son so blessed that you are ours


Always wearing a smile with a face full of hope

you never cease to amaze us with your ability to cope


I promise to always guide you help you follow your hearts desire

for I know you will achieve your goal to which you do aspire


Lost in our peaceful and tranquil accomplished state.

We drift along symmetrical lines, genuine soul mates.

Never before have euphoria I felt happiness and harmony from this warmth I could melt.

We are the ties that together do us bind.
 Fitting pieces to a puzzle, we are one of a kind.

Gone is the void that stole away our youth.                                                                                                                                                    

Made us tell lies when we knew what was truth.                                                                                                                                                                 

No more abuse on our bodies no tricks played with our mind.                                                                                                                          

We unite as a whole, an alliance, togetherness combined.

Our eternal love is so strong for each other a force to reckon with we are to discover.                                                                   

Though partners of equality we have chosen the same path.                                                                                                                        

Wishes are granted without need for such wrath.

Our display of solidarity is mapped out for all to see.

An everlasting bond neither one of us will free.

Drawn together by attraction the seed of compassion has been sowed.

Standing hand in hand teetering on the brink awaiting welcomed promises together we bestowed.

In unison ‘ forever and never shall we part’.

Our words echo amidst the dew top mountain side as our bodies crack and crumble against the unforgiving merciless black tide.